Cowboy sky country eyes;
I wanted to tell the artist on the street corner
that he painted them wrong.
But he looked so proud of them,
that I felt sorry for that fool;
that fool who had never understood the meaning of
colors and where they come from,
that they're more than just playful, pretty dots
and swirls made to entertain
tourists as they gaze with bored,
false admiration at concrete walls.
Maybe I was arrogant that day, more so than usual.
Maybe I missed you that day,
more than I ever have before;
since you left this carriage-hills place
stuck in a time warp and
flew back to California with your brother
to run the horse races,
You isolate me
You judge me
But I’m not alone,
I don’t feel alone,
You are always there
To torment my soul.
I want you to leave me alone,
But I don’t want to be alone.
I want a friend, not an enemy,
I want love, not ridicule.
How to explain?
I’m alone on the inside,
Followed and judged
On the outside.
As a writer,
Love and hate both give me power,
Either on your mind or in your heart.
But as a person,
Love is harder to find, hate torments,
I am only human.
Thank you my bully,
You bring both isolation,
And unwanted company.
Love in a world, where your love is deemed wrong,
Seems like the chances of a snowstorm in the desert,
When you’re not even allowed to express it,
What are your chances of ever finding love?
“Are you still a lesbian?” I’m rudely asked,
To them, it seems unviable for me to love,
That I can love regardless of gender,
Because the term ‘bisexual’ is impossible for you to comprehend.
They question me “Why haven’t you slept with him yet?”
Even if I tell them it’s not sexual attraction,
But love, stability, and companionship,
That makes me love his soul, and feel safe in his arms,
They st
Rage and fire bumble beneath,
Rising higher and higher.
Anger triggered by anger,
Sore triggered by sore,
Petty war rages on,
Raising the stakes higher and higher.
The battlefield calms,
Soldiers return home,
Leaders with smiling faces send the troops home.
Only harsh whispers reminisce of the battles fought,
As soldiers lay dead in the ground.